Showing posts with label poem. Show all posts
Showing posts with label poem. Show all posts

30.9.10

The Silent Music

There is this silent music
that plays in my ears
Oblivious to the fact that no one cares
I dance
I jump
I wish I could see
The sweet songs melodies

I'm punished for not subsiding
and ignoring it like everyone else
but music is music right?
Shouldn't I adhere?
I don't know what the people want or
how to dish it
but the silent music plays in my ears
gathering my courage and
moving my limbs for me
swaying side to side

My pride
only hides
as the 3 minutes prepare an audience
to judge me

My mind wonders off down the yellow brick road
and the silent music carries me like a baby
and a bottle
my willingness sold

Back to my spaceship
where the silent music plays me into my sleep

9.8.10

 



My deepest tresure
Exposing the danger my heart details itself into
Whirlwind of emotions but none of them stay still
Till the blue skies come rounding up the wind like a grounded school teacher
my prisoned dilemna keeps my anxiety on my feet,
Tensing my emotions
And flickering the lights to my tears.
I lay with my ears tucked behing my hair
To cover the bs I am being fed.
My deepest treasure
Is where noone can influence
Noone can touch
or taint
My deepest treasure,pure and alone
Where it is preserved and never misused.
My deepest treasure
My _gold

7.8.10

2.6.10

Nothing can Stop Me

I keep feeling this push against my spine
Push against time
Making my reality real and my dreams surreal
Falling back against time
And the truths and lies
Become black and white
Determined white trigger
Set off against time
I run to the sun
The only thing keeping me warm
In the frozen cold treats
Laced with death
Nothing can stop me I yell
Tripping and falling
Only to roll and run again
Nothing can stop me !
Tears running with the wind
Not you
Not you
Not her
Not him
Im running till the end
No end in sight
Black or white
This all feels right.


Nothing can stop me.

_gold 6/22/2010




Live_gold

20.9.09

Two Bee Reel

So I was asked today to be real...
I thought I was being real...
I have always considered myself to be a real person with real thoughts to be displayed in a civil yet realistic way though I do hesitate when knowing the answer will hurt.

Who wouldn't? Im a human being, yeah one with faults and all.
A human being that questions herself, her questioning herself and why she is the way she is which is a deeper version of one questioning herself.

I am trying to get hardened by the world but not to the point where people are like "what a bitch".
I just hate being hurt.
Yes I've been hurt before and if I choose to move forward with anyone I need to re-step... my steps.

If possible of course. I am
Human,
I do human things and think human thoughts.

I know Im weird but thats just the way I was raised right? Am I a special case? <<< me questioning myself is not a road you want to travel.

I have been crazy busy and that is why I have faltered in my othe to blog everyday but Ill try to keep up. I'm getting tired of uploading everyones pictures on FB too! Aren't they tired of people tracking them? Don't they want to fall of the face off the Earth and see who will follow??

Or thats just a me
thing.

I realized in my posts (reading back which I hate to do because I slightly embarrass myself) that I used to write a lot of poetry not so much on this site but the little posts stem from long pages thousands of texts and convos and random little thoughts. And then
Bloop!
A random poem on a random page with a random a-title.

Don't you love it?
You would if it were you're baby.. which has me tripping.
But then again I am a Pisces.
Being
Real