Pink me!

Shakila James yeah! iwaS aSking about that lip gloSS that u had that went So great* with ur Skin color; .&. knowing we have near the Same exact Skin color iwaS aSking u where could I get a lip gloSS like that or Something Similar too it, or did u know of any that go perfect with dark Skin .&. give it that lil pinkiSh pout

Nicole Ayilola oohhh lol when did you ask? i have a lot of pinks the ones that work, the best so far are Max Factor Girls Night out, this Covergirl(in a silver case) lipstick #976 with some clear lipgloss.. they may have better shades of that one. But I just pick white girls pink lipstick- chapstick and make it work! =)

The Bond We Share?*

Is as entertaining as a night off
As tough as a bag full of leather
As deep as the sea
And as flamboyant as the weather
Full of ups and downs I love her
Can't disconnect nor ignore me, deny me its in our blood
Part of our identity
I love her so much its crazy
Ill fight for her and I don't even like it
And when I get rich I promise I'll spoil her because she deserves it
If not as the person she is as the sister she already is
The adult she is aiming and conceiving and the unique individual she someday will patent and hold sale
My bestie, my relevant, my confidant, my sister
I will make ones for my children so they can feel half the bond me and my sister have
7 years apart but not a wavelength separate! =)


I <3 you!

Say Something

I am the topic of conversation but I never acknowledge it

I really miss...
In order for me to miss... I have to miss ...

Which in fact makes me miss ... a whooooleee lot!!! =)

the 30th*

Today is pretty good trying to get productive stuff done!

live_gold

Stranger Danger

The first day back is soo overrated.
Not having a camera is sooooo underrated.
Im missing my baby! having a withdrawal.

=(

But anyway the first day back is a whole bunch of stares, confusion and uncomfortable remarks.
A lot of "how was your break?"
"you look goood!" 's and a bunch of
"I missed you!!"
No matter if they care or mean them

Im looking into next month because I already know this month I need to get settled, put every energy cell into doing something progressive and do as many community service hrs as possible.

So if I have to be emotionless or not in a relationship because of all the drama and back-and-forth then I wont. It's soo looking that way.. plus I need a job!
Then I can look back on January and say, damn I may not have a Valentine but my grades look pretty neat.. LMFAO


Thats all that matters really because grades can never leave you and my 3.0 (2.9) will in fact be a 4.0 by the end of this semester.
Goal
SET.


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Glow January

Fashion eh.. Style <3

What comes to mind when you think of the word style??
This does when I think of it =]
Enjoy 2010





Babette Epaulette Shoulder Jewelry.. How FETCH =]
http://babetteepaulette.com/

(fashionbombdaily.com)



Just a snapshot or collection of pictures all cohesive to each other - Harper’s Bazaar February 2010.





live_gold

2010 already?

discover me
live_gold

Bloggin in

So why have I been thinkin I was tall all this time???
Im def shorter than my sis who I've been saying is my empalumpa
I hate saying im going to make a part two and don't so I wont
I hate boys who think there spittin game.. you think youre the first or something


I want a skype
Im going to conquer the world one day
I will never be boring..

Resolution:
Finish what I start.
Welcome 2010

2010

SHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

so i haven't been completely there for my blog

::::Meaning spilling stuff worth blogging::::

And I promise you there is always some thriling stuff to blog about'

Delaying it a day because lacck of food and energy...




2010 nik_gold defeats.. then CONQUERS only to



IMPROVE


live_gold!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3

WhamWham! Shingai is her name

This Uk born singer is soooo FUNKY FRESH lol
google her and here is a sample of her work =)
Hope you love it**



EXPAND YOUR HORIZONS
live_gold

Very Merry nik_gold*

I can't wait until my birthday
** I'm going to look, feel and BE miraculous!!!
It's almost Christmas and truthfully
** I'll be fine just being in a warm house with pleasant people and food
It's almost a new year
** And I don't know a thing I could have done differently for this one
I <3 Pretty people with Impeccable personalities
** I aspire to be the perfect me (not perfect)
Cleanliness is next to Godliness I learned the hard way
** "EWWWW what is that??!!"
I need to write a letter to Dad and rekindle my love affair with the family
** Before it's too late
I'm going to be super next year starting now
** Super grades, Super personality, Super outfits, Super job, Super skills, Super nik_gold!!
Positivity motivates me
** So I'm positively getting rid of the negative vixens in my life!

live_gold

Mirror, Mirror on the Wall...

Improvement or just nice change??

live_gold

It's a Done Deal

So I know tomorrow won't solve a damn thing.
Im hanging on to the epiphany that maybe something great will happen
Like God will hand deliver me a map and
From there I can see the stars, planets and the moons.
See what's new and which ones to wish on
So that someday my dream will come true.
Im not talking about another love story
The story love dooomed key
The sad all-I-need-love-to-find-my-way-in-life
My purpose
Im talking about that forever destiny drift
The one in which you find out the laws of nature and if you are god's one and only true gift
And in you I mean man the heavenly sinful thing
The take one look back and you turn into a grain of sand?
That goodness the stuff you feel down in your soul
Feeling lonely but never alone
You wiping your tears away, stating your life lessons on facebook and twitter so that someone can "like" or "repost"
But no one can repost your life
Your need of life
Nor your feed on life not even the dying sun
Bearing itself down to you so that you can see the light
In all it's glory and its last true fight

Heavy anticipation dims down at me cause I know

Tomorrow won't change a damned thing
Seeing you and all the guilt you bring
Weighing my heart down more than it ever has
For the guilt I already had for being born a love child.
No this ain't the "I hate my daddy" poem or the " I was raped but now Im better" storm
This shit right here... this shit right here??!!
Has no category, sits on its on territory
Drifting gently from sea to sea
Terrorizing me
Whimsically not giving a FU**
The life of misery unsolved because I know

Tomorrow won't chnage a damn thing.
I blink and I blink thinking something will change.
hours pass but my life still remains the same
Yelling yellow yearnings of despair for me to change for someone else to care
Because I left a long time ago
Shadowing centuries ago
Formed into dust because what I must be I cannot discuss
Evolutionary
Something scary for me to think outside the little blue box
Sly as a fox but never willing to hop off the soap box and discuss minor mistakes misread
Unlike the beloved dead
I bring forth failure, goal making and half fulfilled promises
I leave behind merry memories, happy beginnings and wondering endings.
I brand things only to be en-lighted that nothing belongs to me only the maker above.
Then my eyes open really wide
The crust and disgust, mucus and deliverance and I focus
and spit.
I know

Tomorrow won't change a damn thing
If it didn't change today when I had all the time in the world
But instead wanted to disguise myself like a small boy or girl
I went to eat all the ice-cream in the world but at the thought pulled to the side and hurled.
Went to climb the highest mountain but instead returned the hiking boots
Insecurities will never deliver me and procrastination makes me the person I strive not to me.
Then I stop and think and ACTUALLY execute the next move...solved?


MATCH

S P I T F I R E

My energy drinks mimic me, I stay up hard at night
Thoughts running in and out but like my paranoid mind never growing tired
and my feelings grow calluses near the edges but the nicest comment could do fatal damage
And I watch time fly by without my carpet to fly along side it
My tears cried out so now I just sob with the restless
Mind tossing around, never settling so it could cover in the ratchet sheet of my scapegoat
Wondering slut of a mind passion and fruitful delay, I feel absorbed by my paranoid state of mind
I know it's dangerous acting without thinking but its freeing
My thighs burn with the incense of another winner
True, genuine and honest
even if the truth slaps me repeatedly in the face
Heart racing destiny pulling my eyes shut on the fact that this is it
Razor sharp ink strewn across my bloodied worries
The it withstanding a second round
anticipated yet i surrender too stuck on what other people would do I miss it
Ball between my legs I tumble and fall
Syllables fly out of my mouth but the anger does not tumble out after it
Im stuck with dirt intwined with my hair and emotions
Lost in the whirlwind of maturity and reconstructed by the mirror image of perfection.
Slowly combing out the dusty failures of mediocrity and brushing back the flaws of defective genes
I open my heart and grab a spare ball-point pen
Ready to think less and spit more fire.

End of Freshman Fall*

It's the end of my fall semester as a freshman.
Word.
WOW
It has been an experience and I would love to say a bad one because Claflin wasn't even in my list of schools.
But it has been a great one,
I made new friends, had plenty kodak moments, did NOT gain the freshman 15, adapted to people, weather and professors (SMH)
Learned to work NOW not later
gotten tougher by NGAF
"it be like that sometimes"
Been Ms Fashion Bomb of the Day on my favorite BLOG!
Who would have known???.. and since sarcasm doesn't read well through text and stuff.. sarcasm
Learned how to get ready and dressed in 15 minutes got used to live with someone and put my foot down,
learned how to get over a cold in .5 seconds.
Learned that taking 3 5-hr energy drinks a day isn't good no matter how bad you need them
One of the hardest thing is don't show everyone your nice side because they will just take advantage of it
Don't be greedy of the good times but always ask for more of the happy moments
Learned to get over people quicker then they get over you (lol)
People change like the weather so get used to it
Everyone gossips... EVERYONE
its better to be involved and well known for something, anything, then not known at all.. everyone laughs at "Who??"
Life goes on without you so what are you waiting for??
Sometimes its best to think on your own a second opinion is not needed
Your opinion is the best opinion remember this is YOUR life
Everyone doesn't give-a-damn about your problems
Be a DIVA*DON who cares?
Being your worst is better then someones best!
lol
and wayyyy more
PART TWO coming soon

I enjoyed my freshman fall and hope to accelerate my freshman spring by the lessons learned, bridges unburned and people met.
LOVE GOLD LIVE GOLD
nik_gold

BlingBling

Who says your fingers have to be suffocated in claustrophobic gloves all winter??

"What's new and hot??" my ring finger asked.
"What about some Bling??" I replied.

Browsing one of my favorite fashion sites I came across the Pom Pom ring ^
It's reasonably priced around $15 to $16 dollars or on Forever21* for around $4 or $5
Some are even rhinestone encrusted.
I even have something similar of my own!
Embedded with flowers and fairy-tale themed items. (how BOMB, what else is better??)
All of this character on one ring and you can have yours like Rihanna this season!!

Get on it!!!
and your fingers will be smiling with glee as well =)



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Why run?

I don't know why time is running from me.
I thought I spent it well.
Checking up on it.
Making it feel loved by filling my time with activities..

Or maybe that's where I went wrong.
Maybe time wanted me to stand still and see time passing slowly.

Valuing it for what it was not the potential it could be.
Dangerously lingering on the idea of full schedules and pent up energy to go out and exert on the helpless world.

Time is mad at me.
I don't know exactly why but I wish it would stop.
Hug me around my waist instead of slap me in my face,
Show me affection in front of my friends instead of becoming the jealous significant other,
I wish time understood I didn't want to stand around..

But I guess age is all about patience and wisedom...
All about time...

I Get it in

Wonder Me: truth lies beneath

So I trust no guy or your just ruthless, moody and insensitive or just overly way TOOOO sensitive.

Um I despise my professor Dr. Spaulding, hope she passes me though..

Camera lost after a day of taking pictures...

Phones off..

Haven't even checked my account balance because I know its crazy and negative and afraid the cops will come for my card. No More Hello KittY!!

I got a new keyboard though!! lol

There are other negative stuff but I have no time to name everything horrible taking place in my teenage life.
However I am rather happy, in a very free and creative aspect of my Pisces world. Very intuitive about the people and events around me. Able to clear my mind and complete the task at hand. Also stems from the fact that I don't have a phone.

Cant wait until Thanksgiving, but honestly its more of a vibe, aura and energy re-filler, food, church and downtown/fashion/night life. Throw some friends, walking my dog probably stone crest mall, getting my hair done and that's basically Thanksgiving. I miss my mommy!



UNTITLED



Ice cold throne
Completed and adorned with passionate weapons of pink colored roses
Sweat in my bones
Reap the instances of the unknown
Mommy always said be careful what you ask for
Independence and closed eyes don't go hand in hand
Victory nails my strength to the ground and cements my only progressive thoughts
Love phrases tantalize my mind with no examples
Red onioned sensation dances through my thoughts
My hands fasten as I realize my belt isn't secured on this ride.
Line skipped
Seat beneath me
Air above and around me
I'm flying mommy can't you see??!!
The stars are down now grass and ride leave above me
Spinning red death chokes my oxygen
But my mind is finally free
Triggered pointed chains break from lack of air and noise
I can read in colors now see with words taste through sounds
The world doesn't revolve around me
I revolve around the world
Vision Seeker
Independence reaper
The victorious one, crown holder, winner of wants
Only my soul can ride deeper

Supra me please!

First official pair of sneakers =)

Scrumptious I promise...

So Chris Brown released his new video yay? Right?
I liked it and realized too many people on one song is cool but what's going to happen on the remix?? Just a thought =)



Do we really need Chris Brown walking buck at us through a screen?
=X But nice video lightskinned Mr...





So I thought this was sooooo cute!
A user on Youtube made a video for Usher's new song, "Paper's" because they liked it so much =)
Enjoy




nik_gold promises not to lie... she is listening to this super duper hyped up
"No Ceilings" dilemna by Lil Wayne...
*** out of ***** so far
the lyrics are catching me but I'm not won over yet!
I'd still rather listen to gangsta love on repeat =)





*WinterFashion*
cause you know... it's getting cold outside!

Here are some links to assist you in this matter!
(I'm still trying to find the perfect pair of knee boots with studs and colored tote bag preferably a beautiful blue or scarlet red)


http://fashionbombdaily.com/2009/10/27/the-fashion-bomb-fall-winter-checklist-warm-coats/




http://www.forever21.com/category.asp?catalog_name=FOREVER21&category_name=footwr&Page=1


UrbanOutfitters
http://www.urbanoutfitters.com/urban/catalog/category.jsp?popId=WOMENS&navAction=poppushpush&isSortBy=true&navCount=21&pushId=WOMENS_APPAREL&id=W_APP_CARDIGANS



Happy Retail Shopping and Holiday Spirit to ya!!!
live_gold. for me.. plz?

Adoring Life brings me..

lemons and I just so happen to come up with Pink Lemonade in martini glasses.
I don't know people!! just look at the pics which by the way... though pictures usually say a thousand little words don't seem to sum up the past couple of weeks.
twitter might help though twitter.com/nik_gold

*I went to ATL on citations ended up siteseeing with Yung Jeezy.
**Had my first drama ever of college (so h.s) and ended up making more and more friends
***Got two Ds my first semester in college... well Im working on that one... (=X)











Stay warm
&
live_gold

Speaking of

Just an intro... I have had a rollercoaster of a week starting with last Tuesday, I almost felt guilty for being so happy and positive. Now I wish for that feeling back, I proritized and went through my day easily. Now I have to focus more on God, college and my family and not the other oblivious aspects of my life. I believe God takes us through stages in life to reach goals and therefore elevating us as a person. Since college started I'm on a new trail and noone can lead me off.


speaking of diamonds and class and college and growth.
I live like I see fit,
every minute
bit by bit
though some may be humamnized errors to look at oneself miniscule by miniscule
I see nothing wrong since im a young lady..
still in school
I choose now to look at myself as a whole, the world a whole by many
years
decades
eras
memorizing the great ones by the size of their soul
Mistakes come and go leaving misheveled footprints like dirty snow but only wet rimmed eyes can see past the flakes of fake.
Only fake can see fake
so no not I.
The whole that I am can only see real, whole and wonderful things.
The kind of things that pleasant ones bring.
To whom or what I'm speaking to I have no idea.
I speak of diamonds, class, college and growth, that I am, that I see and what I assume makes me
whole.

Truth on Brown: 101

Black Barbie here:
Why is black an ugly word???
Don't listen to webster (the white man) its not evil! It's strong, worthy, dynamite and lethal.
Whats wrong with a brown skin girl.. I said brown NOT caramel
Why is every other song about having a "redbone"?
Promoting the small waist, thick-thighed, good hair (or so they think), redbone chick?
I mean, I have no problem with lightskinned myself, thus having many friends and a good portion of them being light, I hate being referred to as the pretty dark one.. oh and pretty one thats dark. EW!
What happened to promoting beauty period? As many darkskinned girls as light in all the videos?
What happened to Gabrielle Union over Eva Pigford?
Naomi Campbell over Meagan Good?? Who infact has gotten lighter over the years.. hmmM
What happened to the beautiful golden brown Rihanna first started out with?


Whats wrong with a women as strong as natural as Erykah Badu, as strong as Angela Bassatt, as funny as Wanda Sykes, as dynamite as Vivica Fox and as stunning as Kenya Moore???
Do you even know a Kenya Moore?




What happened to that Hershey Bar brown??
That Darker the Berry Sweeter the Juice phrase?
We know thats true right?
Why are we still trying to get back to the idea the whiter, brighter is righter???
WRONGER!

What happened to a woman as down to Earth as Tichina Arnold, with a smile like Kerry Washington and a booty like Serena Williams, with a personality like Nia Long, moves like Janet Jackson, as positive as Queen Latifah and a walk like Iman?
As black as Alek Wek, as soulful as Toni Braxton, a smile like Sharon Leal and a voice like Estelle...


What happened??
Do we want our black race to be destroyed, no more beautiful brown. Controlled by our surroundings so when we find a beautiful brown we turn it around.
I hate the phrase "pretty for a darkskinned girl".
It's the the same as pretty for a black person...
I know that hurts my soul, why hurt our race?

Why can't we listen to songs like Candy Bar, by keith Murray and
Pimpin all over the world, Ludacris and zoom in when he says the most beautiful women come from Africa?!! Our homeland... Why can't we embrace or race instead of trying to find something better?
Take all skin tones and love them for what they are?

One good listen to a couple of Tupac's hits including, "I aint mad at cha", "Keep ya head up" and "Ill be missing you" just soothes my soul.

I'm not ashamed to say I am a B L A C K Barbie, just smarter, more unique and with an edge then your regular one ;-)
IM DARK AND IM PROUD =)

an O C T O B E R lift

I have had my ups and downs
Ins and outs
October leaves I have been turned over and over
and blown every which way
For when I was trully up I looked down instead of opening my arms
I believe God wants me to be in a happy place.
As I sit here listening to the oldie "This will be"
I can't find one thing that is wrong with my life
The cool sunset warming my beating melody
The gentle thrash of the wind threatening to grow with each passing second
Just challenges to
over come
Now every mountain prepares me for the next one
Every pissed off Black lady or manipulative white dude
Prepares me for the real sharks of the world

I learned my skin needed to be thicker yesterday...
I know it will be hard, hopefully not to the point where I cry but Im ready
Before the glow of my heart yeilds thin to societies call I stand on my own
The last tree to overturn leaves
Bark still ripe with liquid air and leaves still filled with plunder, experience and serenity.

Not the insensitive Black woman but a courageous ball of fire that knows where she stands.
Me
Growing
Thinking
Acknowledging and
Reaping the repercussions of my actions
Taking each day for its own

nik_gold