Mister Beasley

So i have some serious problems with this shopping online thing


First of all, im only on here because i took a nap from my last period class until i woke up around 8 at home..
(sorry to the people that passed me on my way home!*)
im a little.. umm lol inconsiderate when my eyes are literally half open.

And now thanks to my internal clock im craving bacon and eggs... yummm


So back to this online shopping, its my moms money im just SPENDING.
and DUH i know its wrong and credit money is the worst but tell my eyes that when they look and look at every skinny jeans and brand new stiletto shoe on the page.
Tell my mind that when it ponders on the many ways i could wear the clothing choice.
Tell my skin that when it yearns for the attention and neediness of being clothed in the best
AND tell my fingers that when they are entering the credit card number to complete the weekly process.

I do have a lot of clothes i must say.
I can only think of the ones recently purchased....most definetly cant remember the countless amount of jewelry i own so i circulate in the circle i know.
Its kind of scary, hopefully when i get my HELLO KITTY debit card next week i wont be recklessly trying to change my style and order 100 pairs of Jordans and recently released blazers... =X ahh!

UGHHH! i can see it now!
I need a job.. and for that.. where i live a car is needed..
=(
*gas
*economy
*insurance
ohh yeah ** license would be nice




SOOOO, i saw the Obama family on the cover of Essence and the first lady (almost) on the cover of Ebony*
I must say, they are quite a cute little picture family.
Little brown people with brilliant minds and winning personality qualities
ooo
and the ability to converse with a diversified crowd and still have a sense of who they are and where they come from!

All i want for Christmas!!
ISSS for Barack to be president..
Mexican vice??(freee gov cheeesee for all!! AND release borders!)

lol but also for him to run for a full term, no plots etc for a termination of this, no schemes to split the marvelous Brown family apart.
Just an honest in-control positively influenced and outcomed (a word?) term.
Everything cant be healed in one term but its enough for African American and Black immigrants.
HECK!
Anyone with extra Pigment in their skin to STAND up and say!! "SI SE PUEDE!!!"
=)
Just a wish,

And im off to do some work due thurs and TRYY so desperately hard to sleep
and pray for these addictions im developing so early in my life.
(hopefully i get my celly(??) back tomorrow!! )
I wasn't sneaky enough today!

(actually laughing out loud)
well until next time.

live it golden_
oHH and visit my myspace n stuff (myspace.com/na318)*****
(why did the delivery guy for pizza hut have the nerve (since i get pizza delivery like twice a week) im fat... but to the point... to give me his myspace numberrr everything!! lol.. like im NOT gonna order pizza friday!) come on!

KK IM LEAVING OFF
My sister bought a bed AND she has my debit card too!! =)

Addicted.

Umm yea this was in my head.. so here it goes. :

Burning letters
captivate his rhythmic genes
his sculptic eyes
crease with the inept capability of humor.
His knees ran crooked
his heart bleed guilty doves.

-nik.



lol but anyway like my kicks bill is 699..... whos paying that?
smh aim wont be seeing me for a while. Idk im not even into sidekicks anymore.. its too big now. I really want to use my sis blackberry pearl. You noe the one she gave me months ago but i didnt want to use cause i was still stuck on the sidekick phase? smh it makes me sick. lol i am sick. i didn't even go to school today. Thanks to my lovely friend Ros Thanks! lol. Its funny cause i cant send texts but hellakids textin me, where are you, and i would have never known they cared.

And fashion show is today too but they can kick rocks cause i want to do it but they cant threaten the 20 models out of 100 that dont come anymore to show up or be cut. My health is way more important than being ghetto fab for one of there over-critizied under dramatical, cheap ass fashion show scene.

I have a question. This one is rather personal because its been going on for 20 years and probably only mom dad and my sis (blackberry pearl) knows. How do you love and hate someone at the same time? Like my mom paid for my dad twice to come down here and... do nothing well..... lol as far as im concerned. and complained more than half the time. The when i ask to go to Ny for w/e a weekend or such she dosent respond. Not even to scare anyone or myself but me and dad asked if im still coming in may and she got deadly silent. Like wth is that?? We were dropping my father off at the airport last night, ( and this will forever be in my mind, cause i was coughing up blood and watering tears and sniffling the whole time) and shes by his side the whole time, like a kid in the candy store. I mean it really has been 20 years and she got her first piece of jewelry from him 2 days ago. She complained the whole time we were at the airport when she wasnt joined at the hip with him and said.. and i quote " were like were leaving at 8:30",, and we didn't cause i suffered 30 more mins and she waited for him to get through scanning, watched him get searched or w/e ran thru security to put oil on him (thats cool, i guess) slobbered down for 5 min like teenagers in heat and looked back every 5 sec, and then i layed on the floor (mind you i still looked up to par in dress but i was tired as hell) Like i felt so uncared for and neglected.... Then she had the nerve to talk about him the whole way home,, and got lost in the process. ( i just plugged the ipod in and drifted in and out of sleep)


.... kk.. mayb that was a lil too personal but now you noe where im coming from... sigh*
Is my mom addicted?

the funny thing is i didnt noe i could answer calls when your bill was 700 i mean they did kick me off of everything else including aim. So i got like 20 calls and returned one of them.... the rest will figure it out i guess... smh This is definetly not a happy post. Mayb im justt addicted to solemn words that are enduring enuff to get me through the day? (like that huh?) lmbo.