Dead Leaves Fall Timelessly

It has been a dead month.

Just based on the lack of posts

you can tell I'm creatively frustrated

Because I get no time to express myself

emotions or anything I'm going through

But because of the lack of time management

I don't seem to have time for anything

It's kind of crummy really,

forget about any "me" time

Everyone needs me time!

It's nicknamed keep-sane time*

to adjust my feelings or auras

Instead it's

It's this that this.. Oops something popped up

LETS GO!.

So tomorrow, Friday.

I shall google-write-plan

time management

the process, the execution, the life*

Cause simply writing down what's due and

what's when in my planner

doesnt seem to time manage a thing.

Why run?

I don't know why time is running from me.
I thought I spent it well.
Checking up on it.
Making it feel loved by filling my time with activities..

Or maybe that's where I went wrong.
Maybe time wanted me to stand still and see time passing slowly.

Valuing it for what it was not the potential it could be.
Dangerously lingering on the idea of full schedules and pent up energy to go out and exert on the helpless world.

Time is mad at me.
I don't know exactly why but I wish it would stop.
Hug me around my waist instead of slap me in my face,
Show me affection in front of my friends instead of becoming the jealous significant other,
I wish time understood I didn't want to stand around..

But I guess age is all about patience and wisedom...
All about time...

That was...

Well I'm still trying to get Beyonce's, Pink's and Jay-z's VMA's Performance on this page but WOW.
VMA's could have been tighter, more control over their microphones, their time management and their commercials!! Lord
ANd what happened to Trey Songz, Soulja Boy (you never know), Geunine for my R&B if your going to have a Rock section, Rihanna, Keri Hilson, Maroon 5 and Jennifer Hudson. What is going on??

Whats with Lady Gaga outfits, i guess if sitting behind Beyonce you have to do it big.
Eminem was given his due rights and Serena comes on Im thinking she was going to hit a few tennis balls ( not like the way she was dressed)
Pink entertained us upside wow.
Well until I get the videos.
NIGHT!


live_gold

half-way through.

incomplete neccesity...

Denying the possible. Making my self unheard, Lowering my standards. Realizing that i Can be everything i want to be or nothing at all/ Visions, stories, movies all played out in my brain's own movie theatre that dissapear when the sun greets my weary eyes. I dont know why i dream of things so realistic but only occur in my dreams, like i can make them happen because duh.. nothing is unmanegeable but my actions show differ in purpose..
Listening to that sweet voice in my head that keeps me sane, but by sane i mean questioning my motives and actions and denying the circumstances that underly in them. Walking in my own blood leaving my drunken footprints but not feeling the stab wound that punctures it and makes me weak. leak. i laugh at the thought of being discovered but not at the fact that i cover it well or what is uncovered, no but the fact at who will do it..
Who will uncover the mask that hides the heroine... or????
What more could i Be
I strive to be more open more postive and intuitive
but i get sidetracked like a strong case of ADD comes and hits me square in the head.


But i like him
ugh track of subject
he is AWESOME
=]
big screen something to look forward to and this is all he gets.

NEXT

So I havent been doing anything with my life but when i get back to the BOONDOCKS
definetly stepping my game up in the public relations department.
I have to be myself regardless right
so go all out or go home.
kk this is it for now. Hopefully I write one before i leave.

Im going to miss him,
them
and us
whatever that means

New York was fun while it lasted but 'ims' travel farther.
Will thee old flame spark again...
probably not
since the flame has moved to another burning bush.
I havent visited all my friends and i feel bad but I wouldnt be able to anyway... sooo 0=]
I move too fast and I see that now.
"Speeding only gets you ticket in the long run"
niice .

Slow down baby your moving to fast. you got your hands in the air and your feet on the gas.
I Shake my head at the thought of my former motives
Seriously focusing on God my future and career. =]
Cause those are the only things that will take me the farthest.
Thee only rhythm in my life---- my obsession with this thing called love...