Surprise Surprise VMAs

KANYE WEST.
Well after I was already surprised enough that Taylor Swift won female video over who I really (I mean rrreallyyyy) thought would win (Lady GaGa) Kanye West makes an apperance. Not like Beyonce pan-to-face to see the reaction but on stage... next to Taylor.. with the microphone in his hand. Ranting, he said he was going to give the microphone back but Beyonce had the best video ever. etc! Basically dismissing Taylor from her even win. What the hell is going on in the world?? SInce when do random artist (not even the runner -ups) appear on stage voicing their opinion???

That is what a blog is for.




Im so shocked at someone who could be so class-less or like my mother says (on edge) but that can make or break you especially when you are not defined as a idol yet, Your no Michael Jackson and even he was accused or going over board.

Kanye West is a repeat offender



Serena Williams.


WHY? Are all black celebrities going overboard? Since when do we become babbling fouled-mouthed babies when not getting our way??, especially on court! Lose, go home and take it out on your mesuise (sound it out) or night out with drinks. Why are we losing, class dignity and a sense of respect?? I looked up to Serena and Kanye (for different reasons of course).

We already had Chris take a fall (Brown).
Michael Vick, Whitney Houston JUST got back into the game.

Not even to let my edge were off Lady GaGa begins her apperance with a bang but I wasn't even in the building totally at the time. Lady GaGa was enought, constantly changing and her apperances being rather random.

The head short guy of Green Day being a tad bit over board daring to take off the tape from his shirt. (UGH)
He later made a really a great memorable perfomance =?

But I didn't make it to the middle of the show yet!!!


I congratulate sanity nowadays, tired of randomness and the name phrase "swag"!
f.y.i
Beyonce STILL won video of the yer. Like she was going to in the first place and she even let Taylor come out and finish her speech.
THATS CLASS!
please prove me wrong Beyonce near perfect?

live_gold please!!!

First Block Episode

I can honestly say this month has been.. well rather different. Actually having to be in it to experience how it is. Eleven points for eleven days of random fasting (meaning just forget the internet but Im eating what I shouldnt!!)
1. Not voted best dressed. ( But clearly am, smh at Stephenson and the lames that attend it. Im so on my college grind now!!)
2. Big Sister had some drama and is now relocated to ATL =)( She has always been the peace maker between my mom and I, she makes sense!)
3. Mom wants to be the dirty, old, raggidy, weird black vine spreading rumors and lies but now about her own kids. (Wow what great parenting skills you have my dear)
4. I only have friends and best friends, nothin more, (once again thanks mom)
5. Havent made any progress what so ever between all the drama, mom and trying to stay sane.
6. Couldnt even DANCE it off dance practice was canceled so I might just have some more stuff to do when I get home.. Like danceee! in the shower, closest outsideee =)
7. Realized I was very busy at one point with one person and I can do a WHOLE lot in the meantime.
8. I have rather senstive feelings though I wrap them in a razor blanket so everyone else can feel my wrath. (hehehe)
9. Im very well rounded and not falling off the edge, nor near it for that matter.
10. I havent begun to miss myspace or facebook like that but we can forget the fast food and junk food when your mom doesnt cook nor bring food home regularly.
11. You can only look out for your best interest, though people care and love you they might not know all you want and the path you would rather choose.

On other notes. Lily Allen miscarried. I dont know how I feel about it. I believe its horrible, but its also life and might help her writeeeeee and make better music =)


This week has been absolutely.... scenic.
Even the cloudy days were memorable.
I really have to pray about a lot also.
School My Future My Mom and Sister.
Where this path is leading me how I think of myself and where God plans to take me...

We shall see.
Updates soon...
Live _gold

meaningless..

i was sitting on my bed one day. Rudely awoken my my mom probably for something dumb and unreasonable, but when i was sitting there all these thoughts rammed them selfs into my head as big as it is. =]

And i got a headache.

But thats besides the point, I faced my mirror (which is adjacent) to my bed and asked myself, what have i done with my life? No seriously, I know what i haven't done, no kids, sex, drugs, gangs (lol me in a gang?? ) bad grades or w.e. But what have i done to leave my mark on the world, When I'm gone what will change? What will stay the same? Am I truly meaningless? Sure, some tears will fall but don't we have the same reaction when our favorite show ends or our pet dies? How do we truly measure our worth as a human being and more importantly what steps could I take that are efficient in striving to make a difference in this brutally-honest world...

Yeah that headache lasted for a minute..

But throughout the duration of the day I wondered would I be doing community service other than credits and would I have enough energy to change the world or more importantly the community i live in. If it was that easy wouldn't it have been done before, wouldn't i have heard of people who tried? Or is EVERYONE lazy, idle and uncaring??
What could I contribute?
My sarcastic remarks?
Ignorant and childish rants of insanity and neediness...
Do people really need to hear another teenage story to complicate and explain their lifes?


Well after hours of pondering and weighing the pros and cons of my existence
Ive decided I'm here for a reason only God knows and not me.. for a reason you see
For the lives we change if we knew the path we were to take would be much less than if we had no idea where to go
like blind mice in a cage, how much of a difference would we make, where would we travel and how many lives would we influence?
We wouldn't know until we threw on our kick em boots strap on our work belt and hit the road.
isn't it...
Life is like a box of chocolates.. You never know what your going to get?
Well yeah that sums up my rude awakening.