Showing posts with label lies. Show all posts
Showing posts with label lies. Show all posts

23.9.10

Blown Out the Water

Was not expecting another pastor done wrong story for another year or so.
On top of this, I know this guy..
Ha! 
He was there for my graduation ceremonies (held at his huge cathedral) and I attended his church once or twice while I was back in Georgia.
I don't know how to feel quite frankly about this situation.
I called my mom about this because it could be a lot of things coming to the surface.
We all know the media looks for any reason to tear a wealthy, powerful black man down at the FIRST chance.
However, I'm not saying this is what is happening...
Like I said before...
I was not expecting this one.



30.7.08

Available Symphony

okay so we all make mistakes.
we all know were making the mistake when were making it ... well half the time.

My question is
"why cant God talk to us when he doesnt want us to make the mistake?"
or maybe he does
so we know were nothing but human
or maybe im justifying my actions...

We only live right
once
and "Match Point"
has inspired me to be lucky then...
whatever the outcome
lucky is more of a 50/50 chance "like whether if the ball when it hits the net will bounce back to you or go over"

To only think I thought i was perfect.
Now im used
feel like ive been thru it all but i know thats only half.
im a tool used to make waves through this world.
for what i have no idea and i think thats the point.
How big the wave makes me ponder..
a lost doll is more attractive than one that sits in place.

My head is closed for service my fingers move on their own
based on my swinging emotions..
swinging on gorilla bars
laced with acid and razor sharp spikes
but i dont mind
my mind is not in it.
a natural high
to capture my facial expressions and replace them with strung out notes of a melodic saxophone

Why conjure up the spirit of innocence??
So it can be used to and run around until its old torn and black?
Why not just deal with what you have now.
its good for now
lol
your not crying
just tearing so its not that bad
remember what mom said , "people have it much worse"

So close your eyes
open your arms and hike up your pants
Secret
and take a shower_
you smell