wow april

i cant even hate on boys tryna talk to more than more than one girl.
cause first of all we're young

second i did it like a pro and still didnt give anything up.

third, i dont see whats wrong, honestly if you like/love all of them.

But that was the past and virtually ended when my kick passed on.
Thats probably why i had difficulty letting go, cause it was my phone and everything else communicator.

But idk since i let it go ive seen what boys were talkin bout when they talked to me.... im not gonna lie i did it w.e but thats not the kinda person i was so when i see people try to do it to me its like..... Ummm def not dumb.

And its like i keep saying just cut them off but my heart wont let me. and its not like im fully attached cause i can point out flaws like skyscrapers but something tells me not to. Soo its like having split ends and tryna rock a bob........ omg
It was fun doin it but it being done to you is def not kool. Its a stupid amount of drama and excess brain thinkn (which i do Not need) .

Listening to: Damaged, Danity Kane. lol


So now im here drinkn this pink lemonade in this warm weather, thinkn bout this dream i had....



Dream scene 1

I dont no how the dream went like which went first or last but to sum up what i got ..

1. This is the fourth or fifth dream i had where i had a baby and estranged husband whos trying to kill me and tried to find me

2. In this dream was people i loved and think or want to lovee....

3. Queens and Lithonia was mashed into one odd place.

4 I was on the run from husband, me, mom and tasha was on the run from............

yeah.. i have no clue but it was stupid funny

the dreams chaotic and as the day goes on i forget it more and more, aside for the tryna kill me part, but hopefully mom rents some movies, i fall asleep and dream about that.
sigh*



i realized ive done nothing with my life in georgia but grow old.
i plan to change that.

ugh tomorrow. lol
i def smell meatballs =)



o sweat and i was in zaxbys the other day (chicken joint) lmao
wit my sis from ny, so we was goin in on every1, it was pretty entertaining
and so we see these girls in shorts n heels n bad makeup n wayy to much jam on forehead
mind you it was 40 thunderstorm and everything,
so i was like whores,
she said " i need to be going where theyre going " (nik rolls eyes)
lol
and i felt bad so took it back,
cause im def tryna be nice w. no sarcasm this month.,...
yeah but then this man came behind them (when they were walking in) and paid for there food.
Then these two guys in the corner (my mom pointed one out to me and was like that talll one is cute for you nikki {puke on dressing} def atl meat) cameover and did theyre w.e hand thing idk hello i guess.
lol and then took the girls to sit down.
meanwhile me and my sis was just sitting there and you noe my mom felt dumb cause it was obvious they were doing an exchange of money and uhunn (womenly parts) so
that just shows you the kinds of dudes my mom attracks smh.
I wanted to say, "dont do it girl!" knowing full and well georgia has the highest concentrated percentage of african americans with aids and highest with people dont get tested... smhhhh.
so basically
umm i said it. lmbo

you only live once right?
then we got our food i looked one last time
the pimp looked at me n winked..
winked!!!
me n my sis started singing, "its hard out here for a pimp" and made an exit
lmao
most eventful zaxbys visit ever!!
oh and the chicken salad wasnt that bad either. lol