First Block Episode

I can honestly say this month has been.. well rather different. Actually having to be in it to experience how it is. Eleven points for eleven days of random fasting (meaning just forget the internet but Im eating what I shouldnt!!)
1. Not voted best dressed. ( But clearly am, smh at Stephenson and the lames that attend it. Im so on my college grind now!!)
2. Big Sister had some drama and is now relocated to ATL =)( She has always been the peace maker between my mom and I, she makes sense!)
3. Mom wants to be the dirty, old, raggidy, weird black vine spreading rumors and lies but now about her own kids. (Wow what great parenting skills you have my dear)
4. I only have friends and best friends, nothin more, (once again thanks mom)
5. Havent made any progress what so ever between all the drama, mom and trying to stay sane.
6. Couldnt even DANCE it off dance practice was canceled so I might just have some more stuff to do when I get home.. Like danceee! in the shower, closest outsideee =)
7. Realized I was very busy at one point with one person and I can do a WHOLE lot in the meantime.
8. I have rather senstive feelings though I wrap them in a razor blanket so everyone else can feel my wrath. (hehehe)
9. Im very well rounded and not falling off the edge, nor near it for that matter.
10. I havent begun to miss myspace or facebook like that but we can forget the fast food and junk food when your mom doesnt cook nor bring food home regularly.
11. You can only look out for your best interest, though people care and love you they might not know all you want and the path you would rather choose.

On other notes. Lily Allen miscarried. I dont know how I feel about it. I believe its horrible, but its also life and might help her writeeeeee and make better music =)


This week has been absolutely.... scenic.
Even the cloudy days were memorable.
I really have to pray about a lot also.
School My Future My Mom and Sister.
Where this path is leading me how I think of myself and where God plans to take me...

We shall see.
Updates soon...
Live _gold

jealously

so today i found out i was a jealous
person
someone with flaws inabilities and casalities.

i hate it. lol
ill get over it in a couple days

=/
=)

i left my emotions in Gerogia

-ouch? feelings are for wimps ive always wanted to say that but not feel it always falling in traps not setting it not saying ive been an emotional reck with boys.. umm no thats why i dont do serious relationships but in peoples relations to me in general not trying to make more friends not caring its been heavy since i came to new york for the summer especially since mom didnt think about postponing my trip until people actually get out of school. see but im okie with that cause i dont care- kinda just nervous trying to fit everyone in my schedule (no lie) physically saying be here or ill be there etc. hurts.. my head so advil is my friend these days maybe thats why my emotions are being clouded by my medicated states. idk one way or another i realized i know even less than the less i know so im just sittin on sand waiting for a drop of rain smh kk my tiger striped nails (that i myself created) are irratating the hell out of me tapping against the keyboard and my half dressed picture on myspace got me more private mundane messages that are along the line "waddup sexci" smh than actual comments so im off the computer and hopefully a nap before dad over here tells me to wash more dishes or (animated) sis comes home and borrows more of my clothes she cant fit and jewelry i wont see again damnn. really left my emotions there huh?? -HEAVYGETAWAY

and yesterday was nice even though i know it wont happen again

lol especially with me leaving again but thats not that bad is it?

back to l.i to do absolutely nothing but hibernate and then georgia...GEORGIA.

nope, rings no bells.