3.9.09
SepSeptemberber
I don't walk alone on campus much. That'll change, I realized Im in college and I'd rather have people think I'm older than younger. I'm in college and wanted to take pix of my many outfits but realized I have nooooo time, NO time. I'm in college and realized I'm on my own. Noone will look out for me, even though the school is small noone is going to say, "Hey where is Nicole?"
I can stop being so damn friendly to people, Orientation week is over. My morning texts will still vibrate through people's phone in the morning just for the fact that it centers me too. Im gonna stop hanging out with the same people, they're cool and be my sisters for the rest of the year because theyre so damn cool but I got to open my circle more or I'll die, yes even to boys. Im srry but doing this radio thing I need to make way more male friends then the ones I think are gay but can't completely dress so I'm utterly confused on their sexually preference...
On the topic on sexes...
Even though I may think people can see through my facade of being very self concious I'll have to get over that because time is money and I've wasted the past 3 weeks being Nicole instead of Nik_gold. Nik_gold is going to conquer this campus. Small little Claflina and I thought I could make it to Howard, thank the Lord Jesus I differed that acceptance. Im about to hulu Wendy Williams and Chelsea Handler, take a double dosage of my happy pills wish I had some to chase it down ( I kid) maybe not but who cares! I do. I haven't been to a party since I've been here. Everyone else has had an outlet and Im preparing byself to stay in SC for labor day... UGH! But maybe not.. there are some concerts going on, and you all know Id rather over dress then under.
Im also going to be more confident, that includes the traveling on my own because I guess people are scared, defensive of some people I walk with, w.e just expand my friend circle or whatever, but Ill be strong if their 3 wk friendship falls through. Example A: I met this tour guide in May when I initionally came and dont get the thought in your mind he is worth a blog he is just an example at how loose my networking skills are I cant be nice Nikki all the time I gotta sink my teeth into some people and let them know... Cause aparently they don't be knowing. (ew) lol
Forreal thoe!
Now tomorrow I got to get my ish in order I cant be walking around campus like Madonna without a head or Angela Jolie without a cause!!!
First Step: Deep, hot soothing shower... in the community shower providing by Claflin of course. =)
Live_gold
I can stop being so damn friendly to people, Orientation week is over. My morning texts will still vibrate through people's phone in the morning just for the fact that it centers me too. Im gonna stop hanging out with the same people, they're cool and be my sisters for the rest of the year because theyre so damn cool but I got to open my circle more or I'll die, yes even to boys. Im srry but doing this radio thing I need to make way more male friends then the ones I think are gay but can't completely dress so I'm utterly confused on their sexually preference...
On the topic on sexes...
Even though I may think people can see through my facade of being very self concious I'll have to get over that because time is money and I've wasted the past 3 weeks being Nicole instead of Nik_gold. Nik_gold is going to conquer this campus. Small little Claflina and I thought I could make it to Howard, thank the Lord Jesus I differed that acceptance. Im about to hulu Wendy Williams and Chelsea Handler, take a double dosage of my happy pills wish I had some to chase it down ( I kid) maybe not but who cares! I do. I haven't been to a party since I've been here. Everyone else has had an outlet and Im preparing byself to stay in SC for labor day... UGH! But maybe not.. there are some concerts going on, and you all know Id rather over dress then under.
Im also going to be more confident, that includes the traveling on my own because I guess people are scared, defensive of some people I walk with, w.e just expand my friend circle or whatever, but Ill be strong if their 3 wk friendship falls through. Example A: I met this tour guide in May when I initionally came and dont get the thought in your mind he is worth a blog he is just an example at how loose my networking skills are I cant be nice Nikki all the time I gotta sink my teeth into some people and let them know... Cause aparently they don't be knowing. (ew) lol
Forreal thoe!
Now tomorrow I got to get my ish in order I cant be walking around campus like Madonna without a head or Angela Jolie without a cause!!!
First Step: Deep, hot soothing shower... in the community shower providing by Claflin of course. =)
Live_gold
25.8.09
21.8.09
20.8.09
Mogul business
I am in love with selections from people's outfits that make a statement or STATEMENT PIECES. Fall is on its way and becoming professional for college or even work is a good look.
So I was browsing on my favorite fashion blog
and something blue, new and *wonderful* popped up. An updated pic slip on fashion items to help you become a MOGUL or at least look like one!
C'N'C' COSTUME NATIONAL Womens' suit $490 $196
Satin platform pump $59 $44
Boyfriend Blazer $120 – Topshop
Inheritance Pencil Skirt $88 $49.99
Nyla Sage Zipper Flower Platform Pump $105 $79.95
Two-tone sleeveless sheath dress SALE $49–54
Lip Gloss- Juicy Peach .5 oz. $7 – Macy's
Longchamp 'Le Pliage - Mini' Two Tone Tote $98 – Nordstrom
Zebra Trench Coat $34.80 – Forever 21
Seychelles On The Wire Suede Platform Pump $110 $69.95
L'Oreal Light Softening Blush $11.99 – Ulta
LOVE MOSCHINO Capes $130 – Yoox
Sequin Chain Bracelet $58 – Nordstrom
Givenchy Eyebrow Show Powdery Eyebrow Pencil $22 – Sephora
LIVIANA CONTI Capes $112 – Yoox
Lauren by Ralph Lauren Hammered Hoop Earrings $32 – Nordstrom
Think ahead! Fashiontrends waits for noone! Develop your own unique style and work with it!!!
They Have!
So go forth fellow fashion shoppers and do wonders with this deals under $200!!
So I was browsing on my favorite fashion blog
and something blue, new and *wonderful* popped up. An updated pic slip on fashion items to help you become a MOGUL or at least look like one!
C'N'C' COSTUME NATIONAL Womens' suit $490 $196
Satin platform pump $59 $44
Boyfriend Blazer $120 – Topshop
Inheritance Pencil Skirt $88 $49.99
Nyla Sage Zipper Flower Platform Pump $105 $79.95
Two-tone sleeveless sheath dress SALE $49–54
Lip Gloss- Juicy Peach .5 oz. $7 – Macy's
Longchamp 'Le Pliage - Mini' Two Tone Tote $98 – Nordstrom
Zebra Trench Coat $34.80 – Forever 21
Seychelles On The Wire Suede Platform Pump $110 $69.95
L'Oreal Light Softening Blush $11.99 – Ulta
LOVE MOSCHINO Capes $130 – Yoox
Sequin Chain Bracelet $58 – Nordstrom
Givenchy Eyebrow Show Powdery Eyebrow Pencil $22 – Sephora
LIVIANA CONTI Capes $112 – Yoox
Lauren by Ralph Lauren Hammered Hoop Earrings $32 – Nordstrom
Think ahead! Fashion
They Have!
So go forth fellow fashion shoppers and do wonders with this deals under $200!!
18.8.09
Number 1
this video is hot!. Keri Hilson is on point with style and R.Kelly with his glitter jaket. R.I.P Micheal
Overall very niceee (spotted R.Kelly fade Mohawk.) Are we trying to turn back the yrs??
Overall very niceee (spotted R.Kelly fade Mohawk.) Are we trying to turn back the yrs??
31.7.09
Micros
Im dying out here!
So I watching Paris' show Its Paris, Not France and I was actually going to cry during this show because my mom is leaning towards Claflin U because they gave me another scholarship ... (why can't she work that magic over at Howard???)
Well anyways I was scared of losin gmy friends but then was like (wah??) friends would mind if they havent talked to you in a couple weeks or if you deleted your myspace, facebook and only twittered once a week.
I finally got inkie winkie on the phone and felt much better. Im blessed. People can be so happy when they have nothing (well not so much have nothing to lose) but more of a have nothing left type situation.
Relating back to Paris.. she was talking about the sex tape and how it affected her greatly because she wasnt 19 like they thought she was.. in fact she was around 16ish...
wtf????
and how she cried calling the boy begging him to not put the sex tape out there. But he was like eff it money is money...
andddd how her friends knew he was getting that close because he knew she was going to be famous one day and apparently wanted something of a leverage base.
what a bitch.
well she has the same procrastinations most of us have.. friends, what they think about me and money. Not much concern in the money department but friends and what they think about me are definetly highlighted to a microscopic level..
But newho Im out and about, taking out my micros but now about to hit the road and pick up mom from work, tomorrow i believe will be glorious. =) Only if I add this downtown thing with my riders lmbooooo
ohh lord so my plan is to be very grateful and appreciative of what I have.. and smile. Why the heck not???
So I watching Paris' show Its Paris, Not France and I was actually going to cry during this show because my mom is leaning towards Claflin U because they gave me another scholarship ... (why can't she work that magic over at Howard???)
Well anyways I was scared of losin gmy friends but then was like (wah??) friends would mind if they havent talked to you in a couple weeks or if you deleted your myspace, facebook and only twittered once a week.
I finally got inkie winkie on the phone and felt much better. Im blessed. People can be so happy when they have nothing (well not so much have nothing to lose) but more of a have nothing left type situation.
Relating back to Paris.. she was talking about the sex tape and how it affected her greatly because she wasnt 19 like they thought she was.. in fact she was around 16ish...
wtf????
and how she cried calling the boy begging him to not put the sex tape out there. But he was like eff it money is money...
andddd how her friends knew he was getting that close because he knew she was going to be famous one day and apparently wanted something of a leverage base.
what a bitch.
well she has the same procrastinations most of us have.. friends, what they think about me and money. Not much concern in the money department but friends and what they think about me are definetly highlighted to a microscopic level..
But newho Im out and about, taking out my micros but now about to hit the road and pick up mom from work, tomorrow i believe will be glorious. =) Only if I add this downtown thing with my riders lmbooooo
ohh lord so my plan is to be very grateful and appreciative of what I have.. and smile. Why the heck not???
30.7.09
Smells Summer Baked to me!
Summer is almost over (for me at least) and I must say Ive done a lot.. In Georgia at least. I partied chilled, slept over, had people sleep over, did mad college stuff (and is currently still mourning on the fact that Oprah is not trying to help a sister afford Howard) so Valdosta I go, though I did enjoy the dorm waiting list. I got drunk...? high? nah....umm lol But i most definetly had fun whatever I got into got so much clothes and more coming for freshman year but Ill be regs. cause there is no best dressed in college (But I cant help it!).
OHHH MY TATTOO!
BEFORE...
*AFTER* *- -*
(!)
Nik_gold has learned to be a little more ascertive and directed through her sisters current situation she has learned to take no bs and is still learning not to let ignorant nincumpoops run over me (this is only extended towards friends who do to00o much) .
Ive grown closer to the Lord and most definetely feel blessed and as a direct encouragement on life. Im listening to the Howards lil affinity music for their freshmans |=( ugh!!
But anywho I can't wait until school starts. I know im going to get home sick and miss Miley but Im ready for it, Im ready to meet new people to be put in situations and land on top, to earn and develop my own grown women mentality and independence. Im ready to get back to dancing while staying focused on school work and getting my car in MARCH. That is all I want from my father.. Its too late for him to be a dad to me, I trully believe and in March too late for him for him to help me financially and my mom is apparently okay with that, i just want that car!!
I also need these micros outt!! I dont see myself starting the epitomy of adult life (college!!) with 3 month old threatening to become mini-dread micros! I need a texturizer, I want/need to be even more exotic and ecletic in the best way from everyone my age and at any moment in time. Im not going to be in the same mindset as other freshmans unless theyre talking about money, connections and future adventures.
Im ready, willing and able!
oh btw Im transferring to Howard ater 2 yrs andd...
Live_gold
16.7.09
Casting Me
The wind howls at me with great fear.
Its my friend I think.
Constantly there, deep blue passion wrapped with silk n cotton eyes.
Gently swaying me to the beat of liquid cement.
Casting my shadows with special apperances of the the glowing bulb and gentle lit candle.
Its my friend I believe.
I sway my lengthened palms and deliver myself to the howling breeze.
Its my friend I think.
Constantly there, deep blue passion wrapped with silk n cotton eyes.
Gently swaying me to the beat of liquid cement.
Casting my shadows with special apperances of the the glowing bulb and gentle lit candle.
Its my friend I believe.
I sway my lengthened palms and deliver myself to the howling breeze.
14.7.09
Summer 09
So this summer has been undescribable ever since last yr.. wow like its been a decade i have tried to make every vacation memorable to the point where I would have to reflect on it on my empty moments during the school season. However there are consequences. Smh. Id rather consequences then pure ultimate boredom in its true grey form..
I have a dog now.
Thats a positive change. =)
Her name is Miley
pic post coming soon!!
tweet me twitter.com/nik_gold
I have a dog now.
Thats a positive change. =)
Her name is Miley
pic post coming soon!!
tweet me twitter.com/nik_gold
29.6.09
flower me
relations from the past.
making the future a little cloudy
burnt roses spraying the cement i drizzle on
two feet of grey covered in heart blooded strays
i just started with life
dont damage the grounds i glaze over.
making the future a little cloudy
burnt roses spraying the cement i drizzle on
two feet of grey covered in heart blooded strays
i just started with life
dont damage the grounds i glaze over.
26.6.09
8.6.09
Mixed Fruit anyone?
You surely cannot please everyone but after 75 yrs, now you want to make an African American princess who just has to have an attitude and hair pulled back in a bun? What happened to an afro and a soft voice?
I dont think Michele would like this much. And knocking down two birds with one stone? i.e interracial couples and an African American princess? Is Disney racist or just plain ignorant?
And just a statement on life should African American men be frowned upon when they marry outside of their race when Caucasian men do it all the time.. dipping their finger into EVERY paint jar? I dont think so. Everyone marry who you want to and tell your kids they are special so a movie motivated by MONEY doesn't have to! =)
25.5.09
11.5.09
In my head
In my head im rich, at least a Paris Hilton or Oprah... so heres my new favorite store conviently located a bit far but a bit close, in Inman Park, GA =)
yummmm L.A.M.B jessica simpson BETSYVILLE n way more! (ADVERTISING Maybe?)
Now bumping into this store was a must. It was destiny! I was just leaving my now third favorite store after affordable (forever21) and after this one, (the fourth being Urban Outfitters which I have yet to try out online) when we (friend Kir and I) were walking to the pharmacy up the hill to buy a card for my friend's bday party. When I paused and looked in the window expecting to see American Apparel, which was a few stores down and my wallet started to scream. "Help!!!" it screamed, "This bitch is going to spend me!"
And well... I did!... Well as much as I could ($50) I bought Anne Michelle light brownish patent leather sling backs and $9 sunglasses... $9!!! I was soo happy though a butterfly and cubic diamond ring I picked out was the most expensive fake thing I have ever laid eyes on ($46). The sunglasses here was cheaper at this boutque than the (basically, a thift store) place I just came from. The boutique also had crazy-cute not trashy and most definetly not TOO trendy dresses. More cool jewelry and a bracelet I thought Lady Gaga would not hestate to slap on, purses, shoes galore and sunglasses.. well duh, lol,
The name "BOMB" fits the stores collection of assorted apparel I almost fell over with glee, thank God for trusted friend Kir to have my back literally. When I get a J-O-B this summer I am most likely rewarding myself with a trip back there!!
Hope noone I know finds out about it!**
yummmm L.A.M.B jessica simpson BETSYVILLE n way more! (ADVERTISING Maybe?)
Now bumping into this store was a must. It was destiny! I was just leaving my now third favorite store after affordable (forever21) and after this one, (the fourth being Urban Outfitters which I have yet to try out online) when we (friend Kir and I) were walking to the pharmacy up the hill to buy a card for my friend's bday party. When I paused and looked in the window expecting to see American Apparel, which was a few stores down and my wallet started to scream. "Help!!!" it screamed, "This bitch is going to spend me!"
And well... I did!... Well as much as I could ($50) I bought Anne Michelle light brownish patent leather sling backs and $9 sunglasses... $9!!! I was soo happy though a butterfly and cubic diamond ring I picked out was the most expensive fake thing I have ever laid eyes on ($46). The sunglasses here was cheaper at this boutque than the (basically, a thift store) place I just came from. The boutique also had crazy-cute not trashy and most definetly not TOO trendy dresses. More cool jewelry and a bracelet I thought Lady Gaga would not hestate to slap on, purses, shoes galore and sunglasses.. well duh, lol,
The name "BOMB" fits the stores collection of assorted apparel I almost fell over with glee, thank God for trusted friend Kir to have my back literally. When I get a J-O-B this summer I am most likely rewarding myself with a trip back there!!
Hope noone I know finds out about it!**
22.4.09
Big Girl
Wanting a car and job by the time i graduate.
Wanting a bf to ALWAYS call hubby know everything about and say baby
Be able to shop whenever do whats necessary to make me and the ones directly around me happy with no consequences.
Baby.
Baby??
I used to despise that word yupp i despise it once again.
Mommy used to tell me only the devil needs to get that close.. or something like that
1. When is it ever time to quote my mom.
2. When is it safe to say I hate being ignorant and though knowing everything in the world would ultimately kill me I REALLY WANT TO KNOW.
3. I effin hate surprises like dead ass I HATE THEM.
4 Im probably not going to keep in touch with these folks in school, well after tonight idk who I will keep in touch with .. probably the principal.. he is always full of quotes.
5 Im about to be real sarcastic and to myself again.. God I thought I passed that stage in life ... i guess freakin not.
6. Im about to do WHATEVER i want, everyone else does without caring if it hurts others.
7. just LISTEN to your mom whoever has your best interest at heart but then again you dont really know your in a ditch until you look up.
I need God, yeah like the more I search for him the cloudier the road gets, the road to him gets more and more slippery by the second. There is always an excuse for failing but success has no excuses.
No more playing with this big girl stuff if you dont know what it is RUN!!
lol little scaredy cat.
-peace_gold
Wanting a bf to ALWAYS call hubby know everything about and say baby
Be able to shop whenever do whats necessary to make me and the ones directly around me happy with no consequences.
Baby.
Baby??
I used to despise that word yupp i despise it once again.
Mommy used to tell me only the devil needs to get that close.. or something like that
1. When is it ever time to quote my mom.
2. When is it safe to say I hate being ignorant and though knowing everything in the world would ultimately kill me I REALLY WANT TO KNOW.
3. I effin hate surprises like dead ass I HATE THEM.
4 Im probably not going to keep in touch with these folks in school, well after tonight idk who I will keep in touch with .. probably the principal.. he is always full of quotes.
5 Im about to be real sarcastic and to myself again.. God I thought I passed that stage in life ... i guess freakin not.
6. Im about to do WHATEVER i want, everyone else does without caring if it hurts others.
7. just LISTEN to your mom whoever has your best interest at heart but then again you dont really know your in a ditch until you look up.
I need God, yeah like the more I search for him the cloudier the road gets, the road to him gets more and more slippery by the second. There is always an excuse for failing but success has no excuses.
No more playing with this big girl stuff if you dont know what it is RUN!!
lol little scaredy cat.
-peace_gold
16.3.09
15.3.09
World Premiere Anyone?
This is me Nicole with her first publishing. Yes, I am arriving.
But not without the push and struggle of others who love and care for me.
I must thank every single one of my fans... (tear*)
"lol"
okie okie its not that serious but yay me anyways...
One other notes.
Im not an open book but my chapters are there, you may take my words and twist them into any shape you want but words are rape victims and they take their lives for granted, I believe this is where slang comes in. My pages are filled with stanzas not paragrapghs, I take the side of my work because it cannot stare knifes at me nor cut me with cold mean texts.
I stand with my feet together because apart they fall. Locked straight they cramp but bent they are more flexible.
Hey Im Nik_gold
nice to meet you.
Final point. I think I have that ability/curse w.e where you taste things you touch, smell things you hear vice versa... the taste I just heard..... blahhhhh
like seriously. Im going to google it.
live_gold
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