I tend to fancy guys who are way passed their "asshole" phase, smart enough to look halfway decent at least 1/2 of the time and don't have to say "See me Now" to have it all going on.

But ...it's always a nice reflective to see where you are in comparison to where you've been.

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So I've been a little crazy gong-ho these past couple of weeks, interning working, interning working, lounging, interning straight into work again.

It caught up with me.

Not only did I utterly pass out in one of my favorite store downtown Wish

but I was obliged to stay there until i felt better...

And retrieved a workers number while I was there.

For solely business purposes of course 

=]

But anyway, IDK why I passed I reply!

I eat when I'm hungry and trust me i have never had problems with my eating cycle.

My Wiz Khalifa run, however will have to die down soon if it is messing with my health...

hmmmmm.

But anyways, the one thing I know I have been lacking

as I spill my flaws onto my blog is..

(Drumroll here*)

WATER.

ugh 

puke

spit

gargle

puke again.

I despise water...

And I know I shouldn't its life rejuvenation, Blah, Blah, Blah

But if water was juice.... This blog wouldn't even be written.

I would not have had a crazy set of heat flashes, light headed, dizziness out of my body feeling, then passed out onto Wish's new clothes venue right next to the dressing room.

Ah!

Work

Life 

Water.

I guess thats how it goes.

-_-

Now Im drinking water and smh

"I was drinking earlier now I'm driving"

Smells like Jumani

Feels like Martin and spiral notebooks

Taste like Rainbow Ices and the YMCA..

hhHHmmmMmmmm.

 

My deepest tresure

Exposing the danger my heart details itself into

Whirlwind of emotions but none of them stay still

Till the blue skies come rounding up the wind like a grounded school teacher

my prisoned dilemna keeps my anxiety on my feet,

Tensing my emotions

And flickering the lights to my tears.

I lay with my ears tucked behing my hair

To cover the bs I am being fed.

My deepest treasure

Is where noone can influence

Noone can touch

or taint

My deepest treasure,pure and alone

Where it is preserved and never misused.

My deepest treasure

My _gold

Just having a friendly FB convo with this guy...

 

and he gave me a lil surprise... a real answer to a simple question:

"everything lol
lets start with what inspires you =]"

"im inspired by where im from.

my family.
i believe everyone has something to
say.
i just want my word out.
my perspective.
im inspired by reality.
im attracted to real.
real people.
real feelings.
real life.
i never wanna go commercial and have this video
with stunt money everywhere.
our vision, WIYF, is just to live comfortably
and for the people that struggled for us to be able to live the
same way.
no leers or big body half a million dollar cars.
just a nice condo. reliable whip. and some second hand money.
at the end of the day i wanna look my mom in the face
and say "Look mama, no hands"

 To say the least, I was not expecting any of this. Just a short "Life" or something that would potentially end the convo. But what a pleasant surprise! And an honest one at that.

His group...

So no.. he is not on my blog because he didn't bore me to death, his style is pretty Fresh and I can't smell his breath, but because his music is actually really good, his vibe is great and its always a pleasant life surprise to stumble across something worth stumbling across.

That catches your eye and seems to alter your view on life a bit.

Do we all want to be RICH?

Or live comfortably as well as the people around us and be able to buy what we want without the extended price tag of excessive luxury.

Mo' Money Mo' Problems

Yes, I would love to buy everything and anything I want, but my goal is to become SUCCESSFUL, stay HAPPY and never be CONTENT.

"For the soldiers who see the sun... at midnight, Ya digg???"

Its a known fact Jay Z, Beyonce, and Rihanna have been just some of the few celebrities being accused of being apart of the Illuminati. The question is, is it true or just haters spreading untruths to make some fans die off. Whatever the case, Jay Z finally speaks on it, contrary to his not addressing attitude, 1:42 explains his view on the subject.

Illuminati

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia"   Illuminati (plural of Latin illuminatus, "enlightened") is a name that refers to several groups, both historical and modern, 

and both real and fictitious. Historically, it refers specifically to the Bavarian Illuminati, an Enlightenment-era secret society
founded on May 1, 1776. In modern times it is also used to refer to a purported conspiratorial organization which acts as a

shadowy "power behind the throne", allegedly controlling world affairs through present day governments and corporations,
usually as a modern incarnation or continuation of the Bavarian Illuminati. In this context, Illuminati is often used in
reference to a New World Order (NWO). Many conspiracy theorists believe the Illuminati are the masterminds behind
events that will lead to the establishment of such a New World Order.
"

Adam Weishaupt (Founder)

Jay Z and others in Illuminati???

Where would we be without our haters and the people who knitpick and unintentionally make us better?? The final question is this a prime example of Haters or great Cover?

JAYZ w. Angie Martinez of Hot 97

Gets freaky around 2:45 -_- 3:00, 3:45...

BTW Rick Ross Teflon Don anyone???

Imposter; this isn't me!

I catch my self in the same repeat circles that are no doubt foreign to my character
being bored beyond measure with no help in sight
clinging to lifes boie like there is no tomorrow
and taking in the stabbing edges the salt waters reminder

I catch my self making moves too dangerous to self
constantly pricking myself with the threaded needle of life
dumbing myself down for the crowd I'm around
and when I'm happiest no one can supply I'm still paranoid

Instead of aborting and transitioning with the ship I'm on
I tend to keep sentimental items with me
helping me to fail even drowning my self while the once precious items are cast aways at sea
I see myself falling

I try and hold my chest together
the feeling two beats away from a volcanic explosion
short suttle breaths that tends to never fill up even a quarter of my lungs
that's when the tireless undeniable tears come, a friendly reminder that I'm human and worse I'm a girl, no matter how hard I fight them, feelings live, eat and breath with me.

I'm not heartless, I tend to be immune to bs, ignorant love and hesitant friends
I tend to not give a fuck but I'm working on that
because in some cases it's good to care.
Tender-heartedly, not this one

I fold my eyelids in half, closing out the liquid falicies that make me weak
the red inked sinking motion only tends to grasp the falling emotion in which I've cleverly become so good at
I'm tired of being the one adapting to changes
breathlessly decorated like a rag doll displayed limply in the rachet waves

The next dive I take will be led by me
pulling and pushing through it all to let a voice be heard that is rather easily provoked
the obnoxious and pusher youngin I once was full of sarcasm and play will forever hold a spot in my heart, for being true

Nothing can Stop Me

I keep feeling this push against my spine

Push against time

Making my reality real and my dreams surreal

Falling back against time

And the truths and lies

Become black and white

Determined white trigger

Set off against time

I run to the sun

The only thing keeping me warm

In the frozen cold treats

Laced with death

Nothing can stop me I yell

Tripping and falling

Only to roll and run again

Nothing can stop me !

Tears running with the wind

Not you

Not you

Not her

Not him

Im running till the end

No end in sight

Black or white

This all feels right.

Nothing can stop me.

_gold 6/22/2010

Live_gold

Going Au Natural

Not only have I thought about this for a duration but I’ve considered every action and reaction.

Quite frankly, why not?

I’ve done everything… not anything to my hair. But the usual, weave, braids, perm, press etc. Why not, live in the state my hair is naturally in? To be honest I will be blow drying and the usual flat iron for maintainability. But stepping away from the creamy crack many of us African American women have gotten to know as relaxer.

Referred to as “relaxer”,  because it literally relaxes our natural “s” or “z” curled hair. Putting less chemical to the hair will not only strengthen but lengthen it. I for one cannot wait to see the transition. Waiting for the day when my hair is 50/50 relaxed than 100% natural so I can wet it moisturize and wear a full out afro!

With my tattoos in full glory =]

Until then were going to transition it using natural oils,

Castor Oil

Olive Oil

African Herbal Body/Hair Oil

Leave in Conditioners

Deep Conditioners

*Diet, Water/Protein

*Routine, wash once a week or once every two weeks [dirty scalps do not grow so more moisturizing to the hair, leaving the scalp breathable], always deep conditioned!

Also Mane and Tail* products leave my hair light and moisturized, just bought their heat protector yesterday which promises a strengthening and lengthening of the hair I am to say the least, excited !!!

[Curbing my enthusiasm]

I am also humbling myself and strengthening myself from the urge to throw some weave (16”) in that bad boy and call it a day.

And yes, I researched this stuff because I will NOT be looking like an unnamed professor @ my University who stays away from a hairdresser, perm and comb (?)

Nik_gold is officially taking it day by day with her hair, less heat and chemicals out and more nutrients, naturals and care in.

Officially, Going to be Puff ball head  =]

live_gold

Life is

Something I haven't fully digested yet.
Not to complicate your view on me or my blog
Because I'm sure your trying to figure both out...
But I think I got the gist of life.
Well "A" gist of it..
Here is my take


You can't give up.
While you are here, leave your mark...
Your mark.
If you are so called done...
You might as well kill yourself
And with even such a saddening defeat,
Your fall was the catalyst to someone else's success.


Now honestly I may be too 
Lazy
Scared
Immature
To reach my full potential before I pass
But I know I am going to try.
Starting now..
NOW
Im going to try and do something.
Leave something
Preferably positive.
A legacy like Stark*
But with less dramatics.


=X


Let's call them
Nik_prints
Until I discover the use of them.
Im making moves, got to do it
Just do it (Nike check here)
FAST.
That's life.

live_gold

Prosper

I went off the edge for the past couple days, I don't know why or when or how but I did.
But now I'm back together and all whole and all that mushy stuff. (I promise) lol
You see the brightest light after the storm, they say and in this situation its so very true.
I prayed, meditated and thought deep about who I was, and want to be.
You also find out who your true friends are in these crazy situations, who your enemies are and who truly does care for you...

No matter how dumb they are.
I hate hurting the people around me, though at one point in time I thought in a way most of it was superficial caring.
I see that light waaaayyyy clearer.
Well I also earned money on my fallout LMBO
It only made me determined to make money in general,
The after affects made me realize how beautiful I AM
and now I feel invincible...

Not sure if that's a good thing. -_-

But most importantly, I value my life and the reproductive investment my mother put into me.
Culturing the fact that I have to become famous and weathly to balance out the highs and lows in my family's lifetime.
It feels like something is just waiting to pop out and I'm not saying that I know the direction to fly in but I believe I'm waiting on a sign.

See thats that invincible stuff* right there.
LOL =]
But all in all Im happier, feel freeier and have more confidence, a confidence I should have had not only for myself but that things I invest my time and effort into, my work and the people who care about me around me.


live_gold

Spring Time FASHION* All you need to know =]

Spring/Summer time is here and we have all lived through thee annual FashionWEEK to have some inspiration for what outfits and creations we would LOVEEE to put together this season.


Whether you're out and about, at your summer job or even on your way to your summer getaway, here are a few ideas to have people "DOUBLE TAKING" YOU in the BEST of ways =]

*Strewn, bleached and cut up tops are best when paired with skinny jeans or a minimalist bottom to show the focal point!

*Jean shirt, jean jackets and jean shorts, rompers are hot, durable and easily paired with this summer. Try soft chiffon, floral or a colorful blouse for the best match up!!!

Florals are ultra feminine and soft, be bold and pair it with minimum to focus in or something hard and edgy. Whatever you do try and be innovative. New ideas are great ones!

*One shoulder or an emphasized shoulder has been adorned since the fall by celebs like Kim Kardashian, Victoria Beckham and Beyonce and have flawlessly made their way into our trendy Spring/Summer. One shoulder swimsuits are fashionable if you find the right fit! So go yonder search and BE fashion with your skin out!!! i.e Serena Williams in Gottex Reflection monokini*

Whatever you decide to throw on this summer be sure to:

*be money wise

*dress accordingly

MOST IMPORTANTLY!!!

*wear everything with confidence!

live_gold